I'm not sure where the time is going, but reflecting on the past few weeks makes my head spin. My life has taken off and if I'm not careful, I may get left in the dust.
Last week was the end of the first part of the clinical rotation for my internship (did you follow that???). I am loving every minute of my experience and am learning more than I ever could have imagined. I spent the last 6 weeks working in the hospitals and outpatient clinics, but tomorrow begins a completely different journey. I will be working for the next 4 weeks at the Alabama Dept of Public Health and am so excited to see what new experiences await me.
Before I started my intership, I was under the impression that I had done enough growing up for a while. I had lived on my own for a year and was confident in where my life was headed. I was actually relieved to be coming back home and thought I would be able to put being a grown-up on hold for a while.
Boy was I wrong...
God had bigger plans for me and is not done molding me into the woman he wants me to be. I thought I had everything figured out and had become comfortable with the way my life was turning out. I knew there were things that needed improvement, but I convinced myself that God wouldn't mind if I got to those things later. What I got was a wake-up call. Not the sweet sunlight through the windows, gentle shake of your arm type of wake-up call. It was the screeching alarm clock, cold water in your face type.
I have struggled with understanding why my life has been turned up-side down. I am a good person. I am kind and have alot of love to give. I love my God and strive to live in the center of his will. Why could he not give me the one thing I want most from this earthly life?
The answer came through His word.
Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4-6
But if we hope for what we do not have, we wait for it patiently. Romans 8:25
The Lord will fight for you and you need only to be still. Exodus 14:14
I may not be able to see how my life will turn out, but I find rest in knowing that God has my best interest at heart. My God is bigger and greater and more powerful than any earthly desire. Deuteronomy 15:6 tells me my God will bless me just as He promised. Who am I to question Him?
I am humbled by his grace and find peace in his word. I can feel myself becoming stronger with each passing day and know that it is not of my own doing. He is putting me back together one piece at a time.
